 Friday, September 24, 2010
 back again.. at Friday, September 24, 2010My.. it really has been ages ever since the last time I've blogged already.. haha. hmmms.. Baby have gone to Batam for his cip.. Before he went away, we spent everyday together.. so sweet(: glad that he's having good food over there and that they're actually helping out at an orphanage. help to reconstruct their toilets and stairs and stuffs. Imma proud of you baby!!(: Oh and I've already started working at st james. back at the manicure salon, i was earning by commission so it didnt really work out. difficult to go by a commission pay.. so Ive shifted to st james(: work at st james is fun! funny people always full of energy for the night life. its really full of life. thought i not really a night person, i gotta say that i really enjoyed working there. maybe its because baby's working there too? and everytime he ends work earlier than me and waits patiently for me to finish work(: thank you very much baby. now im having my holidays already. but still have to go back to sch who knows when just to do that fcking corrective work order. thanks hor you fcking pu bor. spoil my holiday. you aint getting any better!!! humph.. back to the nail salon, my boss is asking me to go back to help her during weekends like how ive always done.. i really have got no idea what to do.. i do still have my passion in doing nails but this current job that im doing is great. there's nice and great people and furthermore the pay is quite alright too.. damn.. i really dunno which one to go to manz.. hais.. now baby is away and im so bored!!! how i wish he can really come back soon..:( xoxo, you know you love me Monday, May 31, 2010
Hello~~ at Monday, May 31, 2010 Well!!! Its been really long since I've updated... School doing great!! And so is baby's. I'm really so proud of him for doing pretty well in his current course! *claps for Ash!!*
Keep up the good work okay??? Now that I'm only doing one job, things are not as smooth as before.. As a matter of fact, I can't really handle my money well even when I've tried.. HOPEFULLY!!!! I might get another pay rise...*GRINS* Baby is also working very hard.. School and work ain't that easy at all.. Furthermore now everything is still so EXPENSIVE!!!! GAWD!!!!! And great! I've threw away my tongue stud already. WHY? Cos I accidentally bit it while eating and my molar(the teeth at the very back) actually chipped off... Maybe its really time for a change? AND THAT GOD DAMNED RASHES HAVE NOT CURED YET!!!! WHY CAN'T IT LEAVE ME ALONE HUH?!?!? SO IN LOVE WITH ME IS IT?!?! ~^)_++_)#@!~ I'm so tired like how it is everyday.. Wonder when will there be a day that I won't be complaining about it..? School is like 8-6 everyday and on top of that, I've got work every weekends.. Holidays are coming real fast. Like next week?? But I still love it cos.. *I get to sleep late and wake up late *I get to meet baby more often *I get to work more as well *baby planned for a holiday to m'sia just for the 2 of us ... And the list goes on and on?!?! How great can it be??(: Hopefully I get to do well in my studies. Exams are nearing as well and its all getting on my toes.. I'm so NERVOUS!!! I'm so scared that I can't do well. I'm so scared that I can't get to Higher Nitec. I'm so scared that I will not be selected to go for competitions!!! I really wanna do well... Really really..! And that IF I do not do well, I've decided that I will be working full time at Sharen's place.. At least I've got a stable income and that the best thing is that... ITS SO FREAKING NEAR MY HOME!!! And definately is that I'm doing something which I enjoy so much(((: Alrights, I've promised to sleep early(: Gonna go shower, eat, and snuggle into bed(: BYE! xoxo, you know you love me Sunday, April 4, 2010
lovely love at Sunday, April 04, 2010Time flies. Soon, ash and I will be going to our respective schools.. Things seems boring without him by my side.. We were in the same class for two years and things went strong. Now, I really wonder how things are gonna be like.. Is this like a test..? A test to testify how strong our love for each other will be. 10months has passed so quickly and 11th month is reaching soon. Hopefully we'll both do well in what we're going to do and excel in it. At the same time, make new friends as well. I've just realized that most of my friends are just for show. They weren't really my true friends frankly speaking. Because, true friends don't bear grudges, they won't outcast you and neither will they talk bad behind your back! From secondary school till now, I regard my ite friends are better than secondary school friends. Were my secondary school friends that good? Sad to say, I think they're the worst of all. I felt like a free labour to them instead. I can help them out in the wee hours in the morning and yet do much jobs than their 'better' friends. Yet, i'm not appreciated.. I feel as though I've wasted so much of my life because of them..! But I know that's just a route everyone will take. If you're my friend and you're reading this, ask yourself afew questions. Have you ever really sacrificed time for me? Have you even wondered whether you feel like you've totally didn't even bother me? Have you felt as though that without me being around things would be better? Have you ever felt how does it feels to be forgotten? I bet my friends wouldn't be bothered anyways haha.! Neither could I anymore. Cos I don't want any of them to pity me. I shouldn't be the one feeling full of regrets.! I did what I did as a friend but none of them reached out to me to thank me. Such friends have been a waste. Because I know they'll never care. They care about themselves and what's going on within them now. And that they'll never know how it feels to be forgotten like a lost puzzle or discarded cup. xoxo, you know you love me Tuesday, March 9, 2010
I remember... at Tuesday, March 09, 2010I could remember how things happened on my birthday like it was yesterday... Typical Chinese bitch.. How you've packed every single thing of mine and even asked me to pack yours as well.. I remembered the other day I had a dream.. I dreamt that you said you don't love me anymore and that you don't ever want to see me anymore and you even held onto another girl's hand and walk away from me.. I woke up from the dream in an instant and didn't dared to go back to sleep.. Thinking of it now it felt so real and that emotions are so strong my tears can't help but to flow.. You can say the most hurtful words I never wished to hear for my entire life.. ' I don't have trust in you anymore/ I don't even bother anymore.! Don't be so cheap. ' How do you think I'll take it? It didn't feel good hearing such statements.. It felt like a dagger slowly dragging at your heart.. I've tried.. But it didn't seemed enough for you.. Being shouted by you in public and having you pushing my head sucks! I swallowed it all.. You walked and I followed slowly from behind till I lost sight of you.. Yet you turned back and asked why am I so slow instead... You said I've made improvements but that still didn't satisfy you enough.. You told me I'm a loser.. Yet after all these that you've said to me I felt helpless and all I wanted was to defend for myself.. But every wall/brick I build/stack, you just tear them down instead and step on them like they're nothing at all.. It's like every single time I stands up, you pushed me to fall harder.. All that you've said made me feel hopeless and useless at times.. And even times that I'm not good enough for you.. I know people's tongue have been wagging about me being with you but still, everything I put it all behind me.. I've to keep it all in me and that at times, I just felt like screaming and pulling every single strands of that person's hair.. But I end up pulling mine instead and pinching or biting myself to tell me this is reality.. .Who else can I seek help from? At times I didn't even dare to let you know things fearing that you'll get angry and telling me off that I asked for it.. So I kept it all in me.. And you said I'm keeping things away from you.. At times, I just don't know how to communicate with you properly.. I assume you came across that a lot of times as well... Even when we're in the same school, so many problems have surfaced before.. I'm sure more will bound to surface when we're in our own respective new school and courses.. I just wished that you'd not forget that I'm still here.. I've never even thought of leaving.. Please don't crush this hope again.. It has nearly happened a number of times.. I don't want it to happen again... xoxo, you know you love me Saturday, February 27, 2010
BORING!!! at Saturday, February 27, 2010Haven been working nowadays so my income is like going down can!!! Only working in the morning with dad.. School has yet to start and right now i seriously can't wait for it to start!!! Gosh!! So excited already!!
Nothing much exciting nowadays.. Hopefully can find another job to sustain my daily spendings:D xoxo, you know you love me Thursday, January 28, 2010
YAY at Thursday, January 28, 2010I've just set up my nail blog(: Happiness is in me~~~
There's so much to talk nowadays. Good and bad days with Ash, school, work and home. GREAT NEWS!!! DAMNED! I got accepted in Beauty Therapy!!! Happy or what sia??? Ran up and down just for the interview but everything is worthwhile(: Thanks to Ash for my bad temper for the day and despite him having not enough sleep(me too as well) he went through it all with me. Thanks baby(: K shall stop here already (: taa daa~~ xoxo, you know you love me Thursday, January 21, 2010
Finally? at Thursday, January 21, 2010After a day of happening, everything seems to be back to normal.. Just find it very nonsensical.. But, nevermind(: its over anyways.
Today(21jan2010) totally had no breaks at all! Early in the morning at 6 got up and out to help aunt with the bus thingy. Out to meet Ash to eat. Straight went to help aunt with the bus thing again. Home and showered. Off to Sharen's place to do nails arts and designs(she gave me more work to do los..!!) Home. Did the housework. Cook chicken for furries(still cooking) And now sitting here.. I've yet to feed furries yet but chicken not cooked fully yet.. But I don't feel very tired at all! Haha! Maybe soon after my refreshing shower(: Wonder whether I'll have to help aunt in the afternoon again tomorrow.. Sighs... There're so many things I wanna do now!!!!! Get customers!!(: Go malaysia for shopping.(Still waiting for pay-.-) Have my nails grown so that I can do nail arts on my own nails. Get better in my nail art.(Sharen complimented me!! So happy.. Haha) Shed that weight-.-(Since when I've been saying that man..?) See my baby 24/7(: I'm hungry but too lazy to eat.. Maybe throughout I've been busy today, I totally got no mood to eat even though I'm hungry now.. Instead, feeling tired cos now more relaxed already.. Haha.. Sigh.. PLEASE!!! PEOPLE!!! I NEED CUSTOMERS!!!!>.< xoxo, you know you love me |
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